Matt 5:14

Have you ever wondered why God would love a person like you?
Or is the fact that you are such a horrible person, the root to your doubt that God truly deeply loves you?

My guess is that this thought is more familiar to you than you realize. To think about it, it really is no surprise that one would think this way. After all, it's the devil's favourite tool since who knows when. First he tries to get you to screw up, or actually more often than not, he doesn't really need to lift a finger to get us to mess things up - we are humans - need i say more? Next he makes you hate yourself for screwing up, then he screams in your head that you have screwed up so bad; promising you that you have never messed up so bad before. And then you shrink in some convenient corner, convinced that you have lost at least some ground in your relationship with God.

Oh no... Am i less loved?

Now, this is where the love of god stands tall in the midst of our wretchedness.

Has it occurred to you that it does not take much to love a seemingly perfect person? No wonder there is no perfect love in this world...Once again i refer to the weary and overused saying: "We are but Humans". But i believe that God does not believe in this saying. I think that when God sent his son Jesus to this world to take my sins, He was not seeing the human that i am. Now don't get me wrong, God hates sin. But He loves me. Before i received Him into my heart, He saw me in Sin (Sin here being a noun - a state of things) But He loved me. From before, till now, and to forever, it will be so... He loves me (Always in the Present tense...the NOW) ...

Jesus came to rescue us from the chains of sin. That we may be prisoners no more to sin but to righteousness. (Again a state of things) So now, even though we still do wrong from time to time - i.e Sin (Verb) - we are still prisonerers to righteousness, because all we who believe in the redemptive work of Jesus, have been translated from darkness into light - ONCE AND FOR ALL.

What i am getting to is this; how is it that before Jesus came, He expected nothing of our behaviour that while we were bankrupt He lavished His love and affection on us. But today we Christians think that we have to earn our dues to retain that very love? I can confidently say that no matter how badly i mess things up, He does not change. He loves me. So great is His love, He died for me. So classical and so ageless His love, circumstances does not change that unfathomable magnitude of love He has for me.

Don't be fooled my friends. Sometimes our actions, our thoughts, are truly truly DISGUSTING. I know. But learn to look at ourselves as our Father does. Because when He sees us today, He sees the blood. The Blood that calls us CLEAN & RIGHTEOUS. And the splendor of it all is this, as we continue to behold His love for us, we simply change from the inside out. We are transformed from glory to glory; and the best part is that we don't even try to change. It just happens. Why? Because our hearts have been touched by that Love so Great.

Who would have thought... He would love a wretched soul like me?...

Today as i was bumming around at home, i was just filled with a cloud of random thoughts about life...

1. We are all unconsciously advancing towards death. - It occured to me that every man has a somewhat similar fight in life. All of us, in this existence, are fighting to stay alive. As kids, we are schooled, because we need knowledge to get ahead in life. And when we are done with education, we get out into the workforce, to finally bring in the rain. And soon we marry and have kids. As we advance in years, that pay cheque prayerfully gets bigger to a point we go no further, we retire. And our kids are big, and we are OLD. And we await Death.

In the most literal and physical sense, this is all life is about in this society we live in. I wonder if anyone stops to ask if there is anything more to life than this...i wonder...

2. Is there a purpose to our existence? - i figured the answer to this question, most definitely depended on whether or not we believe in the existence of a God. If there is no god, then there is no purpose, because life would be nothing more than a struggle to stay alive. though of course, this journey does have its highs and joys involving people with different backgrounds and tastes and careers; their idiosyncracies making this world a myriad of characters and personalities. But that doesn't change the fact that life is but a bid to remain in being and in this existence, find reasons to smile and be happy. Sadly life is still but a time bomb, ticking away towards the inevitable Death. And when we are gone, all that remain are the memories of our prints in this world, and when those who once remembered us are gone too; there is nothing left of us in this world for there is no one left to remember us.

But if there is a god, then life would not be a struggle to BE. For i already am. And my journey here will not be a fight to stay alive, for i know that though my body dies, i have only gone to a better place, and i continue to BE, now here in paradise. Hence life's journey will be a time of discovery, fellowship and communion with my God. And life's "challenges", a platform for Him to BE MY GOD, for Him to lavishly shower His provisions upon me, as i continue to witness and receive His unmerited favour in my life with each passing day. And my purpose will be to live for Him. My testimony as a letter written for its reader, or a song sung for a pair of listening ears - I carry a message of truth. And my presence will leave an everlasting mark, even unto eternalty.

...Thoughts, i thank god for thoughts...

Its time to sleep.